I don’t write that title to tell an experience of my own life but quite the opposite actually. The further I get along in my life the more I don’t understand how we operate as human beings. I have been so in love with my wife and kids over the past few months I can’t even explain how amazing it’s been. I feel like i must live in a bubble of some sorts because the closer I get to my family and the better things get here the darker they seem to get outside. 

I know that things have always been like this and there has always been a division that has been inside families because if families were really as close and relationships were what they were suppose to be God would have to be first in everyones lives, but come on. For the past well I don’t know how long I’ve heard people say something like this ” I don’t think I can have kids cause i don’t want to bring kids into this world because it’s to awful of a world.” I always thought that those people were just being idiotic thinking that because God is bigger than all those things. I still believe that God is bigger but man the further I get in life and the more I work with people the more I realize that this place is not a place I want my kids to grow up in. Now that I have two kids I see all of these things that I pray will never touch my kids. There is no bubble that is safe enough to place your kids that will keep them safe and secure. Public or private school doesn’t matter Christian school or secular school doesn’t matter. Church or street doesn’t seem to matter. There is always something lurking. The older I get the more I realize that I just have to lean completely on the Lord. There is no one/thing else that could possibly cover my children and keep them safe. Unfortunately parents don’t even keep there own kids safe, I mean 90% of the time it’s actually at home or the parents specifically that are causing there to be issues. How people can fool themselves into thinking that things are kosher in this world is beyond me.I can say this that my relationship with the Lord has brought me to a place where I realize that my strength isn’t enough that we as humans aren’t able to do it alone. That we must raise our hands to the Lord and allow him to pick us up and hold us keep us close and protected. I don’t ever want to know what it’s like to be alone in a house with three other people… Later,